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Nadja Lee


Betrayal - part one in the "Everything Changes" series
English is not my native language. Please forgive me my mistakes.
Disclaimer: "X-men" and all the characters here belong to Marvel , 20 Century Fox and I intend no infringement, 
this is a piece of amateur fan fiction, and I make no money of it. Only the original idea contained within this work is 
the property of the author. Please do not copy this story to any website or archive without permission of the author.
Timeline: Set a little after the movie
Universe: Set in the movie universe. Only the movie NOT the book that goes with it!
Romance: Scott/ Jean, Jean/ Logan,
Summary:  Scott finds out that there has been more than stares between Jean and Logan.
Archiving: Want, ASK, take,  have.
Feedback: Yes, please.
Rating: PG
Thanks to Cristina for the Beta. You're the best!
*mmmm * is telepathically thoughts spoken in the mind. " mmmmm "  is spoken out loud

Part 1:
Scott was glad Logan was back. Really he was. Logan was a great asset to their cause, he was a great warrior and it pleased Rogue enormously that he was back. He sighed deeply. Who was he kidding? He hated Logan. Well, actually he didn't hate him he just disagreed on his methods even though he had to admit that they often worked. But Jean.When ever he was around Jean he did hate him. He saw the looks that passed between the two of them, the passion in their eyes. He loved Jean. He loved her more than anything in this world and just the very thought of losing her made him shudder. He took a deep breath. You are really being ridiculous, Scott. And paranoid. Nothing is happening between them and nothing ever will. Jean loves you. She tells you so often enough. He tried to reassure himself but the thought does she really? Does she really love you or is it just because she is so used to say it that she don't think about it? kept returning to his mind like a unwanted visitor. No, stop it. You have to trust Jean. He told himself sternly. Old habits were hard to break and as a child without a family, unwanted, hated and feared he had had no trust in people but Xavier had changed all that when he had saved him from a abusive and manipulative foster father who hated him because of his powers which made him a freak as he said and only kept him around for the monthly check. This was the time to show Xavier, Jean and not least himself that he had changed. He could love and he could trust. For he would trust Jean. With his life without a doubt but also with his heart.

Part 2
With a small smile on his lips because of his new found peace of mind Scott returned to the reason he was sitting in his half dark office in Xavier`s school for gifted youngsters: the mathematics reports he should correct and grade to return them the next morning; Monday. He was the only mathematics teacher in the school and the big pile of reports from all classes on his deck bore witness to that fact. With determination he opened the first report. It was Bobby's . He had calculated the first arithmetical problem right but the next Scott had to look more into. Interesting way to solve that he thought after he had seen it was right and wrote fine next to it. After having been the whole report through he gave Bobby an A-. He was halfway through Rogue's report and tried as best as he could to not only make some kind of sense of her mathematical logic but also read her handwriting which sometimes made it look like she had written the report in Chinese instead of English. Suddenly a flicker of movement caught his eye through the big window to the garden. Instinctively he turned to see. Almost out of range of sight he saw two people, their arms closely rapped around each other and their lips meeting in a kiss. Scott smiled for their happiness. It was probably some of the students. He cast a quick look at the clock, it read 0145. Hum, a little too late for a date he thought. Maybe he should call them inside the house. After all they had classes the next day and they knew well enough that they were not supposed to go out alone after midnight if no one knew where they were. He had just decided to go out and have a small talk with them when the cloud, which had covered for the bright moonlight, disappeared and the moonlight bathed the two lovers in a silver light. Scott saw their faces and thought he should die; it was Logan and Jean. He wanted to turn around from them but something made him stand as frozen in place. Even over the distance Scott saw Logan unbutton Jean's dress and the two sank to the ground together. This
kept thinking again and again but the scene just before his eyes gave no room for wishful thinking. Hurt and repulsed by the scene in front of him he turned around. Anger as hot as lava floated through him and his first thought was to go out there and tell them exactly what he thought of them, preferable with his eyes open; literally. But years of control held him back. That was not the way. He would only sink to their level. Walking as in trace he reached his and Jean's room. First then did reality hit him full force; he had lost her, he had truly lost her and he started to cry for the first time since an officious teacher in the orphanage had beaten the "softness" out of him when he was a little boy. He cried for what felt like days. He cried for all he had lost, he cried because he had been so stupid as to believe in love again, he cried because he still loved her. When Jean much later tiptoed into bed Scott had cried himself to sleep.

Part 3:
When Scott awoke the next morning Jean had already left for a medical conference and a part of him was glad while another part of him wished she had been there so he could unleash his pain in anger towards her. He looked at the clock 0714 it read. Shirt, he thought, the reports. Dressed quickly in a pair of blue cowboy trousers and a tight black T-shirt he ran into his office and took out the reports for the children he had before noon, which luckily was only one class because he also had classes in car maintenance and physics. Working as fast as he could he corrected the last reports and was in class only 3 minutes late. Not bad, he thought as he seated himself.
"Now class, settle down" Scott said and the class became quite. " I have your reports with me as I promised. Most of you did very well" He began handing out the reports. Normally he loved teaching but the night's events were still so fresh in his mind that he had trouble concentrating on anything else but the sight of Jean, his Jean in Logan`s arms. Time seemed to drag on into the unknown but at last the class was over.             
 " Remember, pages 78-89 till next time" Scott yelled after them as the class quickly dissolved. He couldn't help but wonder if he would be the one to go through those pages with them or not. His mind and heart was in turmoil and he had still not decided if he would stay at the school or not. His heart was torn in two, one part wanted him to go to get away from it all and lick his wounds in private but the part of him who still loved Jean so very very much wanted to stay just to be close to her even though seeing her every day and knowing she was no longer his would break his heart. So wrapped up in his own thoughts was he that he did not see Logan coming around the corner and a collision was unavoidable.
" Hey, look where you are going, One-Eye" Logan growled, getting up. The night's events coming back to him full force and for once his anger won over his control. Catching Logan totally of balance he hit him full force in the abdomen and then hit him on the back of his neck making Logan fall over and gash for breath.
" How dare you? How dare you?" Suddenly on the edge of tears his strength leaving him, he screamed " I hate you!" and almost ran down the corridor to the safety of his office. He sat in his chair and tried to collect his thoughts. Now he felt embarrassed by his loss of control earlier. A knock on the door interrupted his thoughts. " Come in" He said and tried to sound normal and in control. Storm came in.
" Jean is back. She is in the library. Alone. I thought you wanted to know." She said softly.
" Thanks" Scott went past her to the library. He was so caught up in his own misery that he never saw the look of compassion and maybe more Storm sent his way.

Part 4:
" Scott" Jean said happily when he entered the library and went to give him a hug but Scott avoided her embrace. She looked confused at him.
" Jean, we need to talk" Scott said softly and seated himself in one of the two chairs, which stood near one of the big windows in the library.
" Ok" Jean said not at all at easy with the situation. Scott sighed deeply.
" I will be blunt. I saw you and Logan last night." Jean was about to say something but Scott stopped her " No, let me finish" He said Or I never will, he thought sadly. " I need to know only one thing; how long have it been going on?" His eyes beneath the glasses dared her to lie.
" Since he came back. A month" Jean answered quietly, not pretending she did not know what he was talking about. Tears were in her eyes: " I wanted to tell you. Really I did. The time just never seemed right." She said brokenly, her eyes begging for forgiveness. His eyes and voice were cold for his heart was slowly dyeing.
" There it only one thing I hate more than betrayal and that is lying. You should have told me. If nothing else I deserved the truth." He walked over to her and kneeled before her. She was crying and hiding her face in her hands. Gently he took her under the chin and forced her to meet his eyes. " Don't cry, love. You have what you wanted, you now have Logan." He smiled faintly to her and then he kissed her gently on the lips, a kiss as light and fine as a butterfly in the summer breeze as he enjoyed this last taste of her. Slowly he stood up and went to the door. " I will leave. I can't stay:" He said pained.
" No" Jean went towards him.
" You know.." He said and turned back towards her " I really did love you." He turned around again and mumbled " So very very much" and under his breath he added " and I still do" and then he was gone. Out of the room and out of Jean's life.

part 5: epilogue:
It was late Monday night and after having said a brief farewell to the Professor, the children and Storm, Scott put his last suitcase in his car, a open red sports car, and was about to drive away when Jean came running down the stairs.
" Scott, wait" She yelled. He turned his head and looked at her. She stopped a little away from the side of the car. She looked uncomfortable. " Will.will you be back?" She asked him softly.
" I honestly don't know," he answered. He turned and was about to start the car when Jean spoke again:
" You never did ask me if I love you," she said quietly.
" I don't have to. You may have loved me once but you don't betray and lie to the ones you love."  He answered softly and she could clearly hear the pain in his voice. Then he started the car and was gone.

End part 1.

Next part in this series is "Lost" - part two in the "Everything Changes" series


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