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Betrayal
Betrayal - part one in the "Everything Changes"
series
English is not my native language. Please forgive me my mistakes.
Disclaimer: "X-men" and all the characters here belong to
Marvel , 20 Century Fox and I intend no infringement,
this is a piece of amateur fan fiction, and I make no money of it. Only
the original idea contained within this work is
the property of the author. Please do not copy this story to any website
or archive without permission of the author.
Timeline: Set a little after the movie
Universe: Set in the movie universe. Only the movie NOT the book that
goes with it!
Romance: Scott/ Jean, Jean/ Logan,
Summary: Scott finds out that there has been more than stares
between Jean and Logan.
Archiving: Want, ASK, take, have.
Feedback: Yes, please.
Rating: PG
Thanks to Cristina for the Beta. You're the best!
*mmmm * is telepathically thoughts spoken in the mind. " mmmmm
" is spoken out loud
Part 1:
Scott was glad Logan was back. Really he was. Logan was a great asset to
their cause, he was a great warrior and it pleased Rogue enormously that
he was back. He sighed deeply. Who was he kidding? He hated Logan. Well,
actually he didn't hate him he just disagreed on his methods even though
he had to admit that they often worked. But Jean.When ever he was around
Jean he did hate him. He saw the looks that passed between the two of
them, the passion in their eyes. He loved Jean. He loved her more than
anything in this world and just the very thought of losing her made him
shudder. He took a deep breath. You are really being ridiculous, Scott.
And paranoid. Nothing is happening between them and nothing ever will.
Jean loves you. She tells you so often enough. He tried to reassure
himself but the thought does she really? Does she really love you or is
it just because she is so used to say it that she don't think about it?
kept returning to his mind like a unwanted visitor. No, stop it. You
have to trust Jean. He told himself sternly. Old habits were hard to
break and as a child without a family, unwanted, hated and feared he had
had no trust in people but Xavier had changed all that when he had saved
him from a abusive and manipulative foster father who hated him because
of his powers which made him a freak as he said and only kept him around
for the monthly check. This was the time to show Xavier, Jean and not
least himself that he had changed. He could love and he could trust. For
he would trust Jean. With his life without a doubt but also with his
heart.
Part 2
With a small smile on his lips because of his new found peace of mind
Scott returned to the reason he was sitting in his half dark office in
Xavier`s school for gifted youngsters: the mathematics reports he should
correct and grade to return them the next morning; Monday. He was the
only mathematics teacher in the school and the big pile of reports from
all classes on his deck bore witness to that fact. With determination he
opened the first report. It was Bobby's . He had calculated the first
arithmetical problem right but the next Scott had to look more into.
Interesting way to solve that he thought after he had seen it was right
and wrote fine next to it. After having been the whole report through he
gave Bobby an A-. He was halfway through Rogue's report and tried as
best as he could to not only make some kind of sense of her mathematical
logic but also read her handwriting which sometimes made it look like
she had written the report in Chinese instead of English. Suddenly a
flicker of movement caught his eye through the big window to the garden.
Instinctively he turned to see. Almost out of range of sight he saw two
people, their arms closely rapped around each other and their lips
meeting in a kiss. Scott smiled for their happiness. It was probably
some of the students. He cast a quick look at the clock, it read 0145.
Hum, a little too late for a date he thought. Maybe he should call them
inside the house. After all they had classes the next day and they knew
well enough that they were not supposed to go out alone after midnight
if no one knew where they were. He had just decided to go out and have a
small talk with them when the cloud, which had covered for the bright
moonlight, disappeared and the moonlight bathed the two lovers in a
silver light. Scott saw their faces and thought he should die; it was
Logan and Jean. He wanted to turn around from them but something made
him stand as frozen in place. Even over the distance Scott saw Logan
unbutton Jean's dress and the two sank to the ground together. This
kept thinking again and again but the scene just before his eyes gave no
room for wishful thinking. Hurt and repulsed by the scene in front of
him he turned around. Anger as hot as lava floated through him and his
first thought was to go out there and tell them exactly what he thought
of them, preferable with his eyes open; literally. But years of control
held him back. That was not the way. He would only sink to their level.
Walking as in trace he reached his and Jean's room. First then did
reality hit him full force; he had lost her, he had truly lost her and
he started to cry for the first time since an officious teacher in the
orphanage had beaten the "softness" out of him when he was a
little boy. He cried for what felt like days. He cried for all he had
lost, he cried because he had been so stupid as to believe in love
again, he cried because he still loved her. When Jean much later tiptoed
into bed Scott had cried himself to sleep.
Part 3:
When Scott awoke the next morning Jean had already left for a medical
conference and a part of him was glad while another part of him wished
she had been there so he could unleash his pain in anger towards her. He
looked at the clock 0714 it read. Shirt, he thought, the reports.
Dressed quickly in a pair of blue cowboy trousers and a tight black
T-shirt he ran into his office and took out the reports for the children
he had before noon, which luckily was only one class because he also had
classes in car maintenance and physics. Working as fast as he could he
corrected the last reports and was in class only 3 minutes late. Not
bad, he thought as he seated himself.
"Now class, settle down" Scott said and the class became
quite. " I have your reports with me as I promised. Most of you did
very well" He began handing out the reports. Normally he loved
teaching but the night's events were still so fresh in his mind that he
had trouble concentrating on anything else but the sight of Jean, his
Jean in Logan`s arms. Time seemed to drag on into the unknown but at
last the class was over.
" Remember, pages 78-89 till next time" Scott yelled
after them as the class quickly dissolved. He couldn't help but wonder
if he would be the one to go through those pages with them or not. His
mind and heart was in turmoil and he had still not decided if he would
stay at the school or not. His heart was torn in two, one part wanted
him to go to get away from it all and lick his wounds in private but the
part of him who still loved Jean so very very much wanted to stay just
to be close to her even though seeing her every day and knowing she was
no longer his would break his heart. So wrapped up in his own thoughts
was he that he did not see Logan coming around the corner and a
collision was unavoidable.
" Hey, look where you are going, One-Eye" Logan growled,
getting up. The night's events coming back to him full force and for
once his anger won over his control. Catching Logan totally of balance
he hit him full force in the abdomen and then hit him on the back of his
neck making Logan fall over and gash for breath.
" How dare you? How dare you?" Suddenly on the edge of tears
his strength leaving him, he screamed " I hate you!" and
almost ran down the corridor to the safety of his office. He sat in his
chair and tried to collect his thoughts. Now he felt embarrassed by his
loss of control earlier. A knock on the door interrupted his thoughts.
" Come in" He said and tried to sound normal and in control.
Storm came in.
" Jean is back. She is in the library. Alone. I thought you wanted
to know." She said softly.
" Thanks" Scott went past her to the library. He was so caught
up in his own misery that he never saw the look of compassion and maybe
more Storm sent his way.
Part 4:
" Scott" Jean said happily when he entered the library and
went to give him a hug but Scott avoided her embrace. She looked
confused at him.
" Jean, we need to talk" Scott said softly and seated himself
in one of the two chairs, which stood near one of the big windows in the
library.
" Ok" Jean said not at all at easy with the situation. Scott
sighed deeply.
" I will be blunt. I saw you and Logan last night." Jean was
about to say something but Scott stopped her " No, let me
finish" He said Or I never will, he thought sadly. " I need to
know only one thing; how long have it been going on?" His eyes
beneath the glasses dared her to lie.
" Since he came back. A month" Jean answered quietly, not
pretending she did not know what he was talking about. Tears were in her
eyes: " I wanted to tell you. Really I did. The time just never
seemed right." She said brokenly, her eyes begging for forgiveness.
His eyes and voice were cold for his heart was slowly dyeing.
" There it only one thing I hate more than betrayal and that is
lying. You should have told me. If nothing else I deserved the
truth." He walked over to her and kneeled before her. She was
crying and hiding her face in her hands. Gently he took her under the
chin and forced her to meet his eyes. " Don't cry, love. You have
what you wanted, you now have Logan." He smiled faintly to her and
then he kissed her gently on the lips, a kiss as light and fine as a
butterfly in the summer breeze as he enjoyed this last taste of her.
Slowly he stood up and went to the door. " I will leave. I can't
stay:" He said pained.
" No" Jean went towards him.
" You know.." He said and turned back towards her " I
really did love you." He turned around again and mumbled " So
very very much" and under his breath he added " and I still
do" and then he was gone. Out of the room and out of Jean's life.
part 5: epilogue:
It was late Monday night and after having said a brief farewell to the
Professor, the children and Storm, Scott put his last suitcase in his
car, a open red sports car, and was about to drive away when Jean came
running down the stairs.
" Scott, wait" She yelled. He turned his head and looked at
her. She stopped a little away from the side of the car. She looked
uncomfortable. " Will.will you be back?" She asked him softly.
" I honestly don't know," he answered. He turned and was about
to start the car when Jean spoke again:
" You never did ask me if I love you," she said quietly.
" I don't have to. You may have loved me once but you don't betray
and lie to the ones you love." He answered softly and she
could clearly hear the pain in his voice. Then he started the car and
was gone.
End part 1.
Next part in this series is "Lost" - part two in the
"Everything Changes" series
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