She's All I Ever Had
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Timeline: Set in the comic universe. After Scott's and Jean's wedding.
Universe: Set in comic universe.
Summary: Scott thinks about Jean and what she means to him
Archiving: Want, ASK, take, have.
Feedback: Yes, please. (Use Feedback Button)
Sequel/series: Probably not.
*mmmm * is telepathically thoughts spoken in the mind. " mmmmm
" is spoken out loud.
I remember when I saw her the first time; so young, so beautiful..so
innocent. For as long as I can remember she was all I ever wanted. She
is fire, she is love, she is...she is Jean, my love. She is as necessary
to me as the air I breathe, I remember telling her so once. It took so
long for us to be together, I was too shy and too afraid. Luckily she
was neither; not only did she steal the first kiss but she was also the
one to propose. As she lies here besides me in bed, her long hair spread
out over the pillow I'm sure no one can be more perfect; the most
beautiful of creatures, the most gorgeous of creations.
Over the years we have been through so much, life, death and everything
in between. She calls me strong for all I have lived through but I
wonder if she knows that I'm only strong because I have her? She is the
true leader, the true heart of the X-men. Without her I'm like a ship
without a captain; drifting aimlessly at sea.
I touch her flaming fire hair; it is smooth and soft as silk. Gods, I
love her hair, love to run my fingers through it. Drives her crazy
sometimes when I ask her if I can brush her hair for her or when she
once wanted to cut her hair short; I did nothing less than forbid it
which didn't go over well until she had cooled down a bit. My eyes
soften as they always do when I look at her. She looks so peaceful in
sleep; so perfect. And she's all mine. To this day I still can't believe
she actually choose me, that she married me.
She is all I never had. She is my friend, my mother, my support, my
lover, my wife; she is everything I ever need. She was my fist love, she
will be my last. She is all I never had.
Her powers are awe-inspiring but her power over my heart are the most
powerful of them all. The bond we share will never break for I can't let
her go. We aren't two people but one. She is the other part of me, the
other part of my soul; without her I am incomplete. My hands brush
lightly over hers and even in her sleep she closes her hands over mine,
holding them safe and close. She has always done that; she has lead me
home, guided me when I got lost. She is the dream I follow, she is the
light in my world. She could destroy worlds with a thought but in her
arms I know; I'll always be safe.
Someone once told me our relationship would never work because we were
so different but they are wrong; to every darkness there must be light,
to every pain there are love, to every man there is a woman just for him
and I know that I have found mine. I would die for her, I would even
kill for her; anything to see her safe for she is everything to me; she
is all I ever had.
I have never had a lot of love in my life but with Jean by my side I
need no greater love because she IS love. Even now in her sleep her
thoughts and feelings of love lies as a warm and comforting blanket over
my soul and mind. No matter how far part we may wander we will always
find each other again; I know that now because we are linked together by
love, by our hearts in a bond that can never be broken.
She turns in her sleep and I gently wipe some loose hair out of her
eyes. My heart fills with love for this woman and I hold her close to
me. I lost her once but got her back; I will never loose her again.
Through all these years she has stood by my side, no matter what
happened I could always count on her; she has always supported and
trusted me; always loved me. She is all I ever need. She is all I ever
When I look into her eyes, I know it is forever. The image her eyes
reflects back at me makes me want to be a man she can be proud off,
makes me strike to be the best. The way she makes me feel; it's the only
thing which is constant, which is real. When she smiles my heart melts.
When she laugh I laugh with her, if she should cry I'll be there to wipe
away her tears and make everything alright again. She is the air I
breathe, she is the one I live for; she is my love, she is my life. She
is all I ever had.
I lean close to her, my warm breath caresses her cheek. Such beauty,
such perfection....such love, such compassion. She has the appearance of
a fragile China doll, making me want to hold her close and protect her
forever but I know; she is Phoenix, truly fire and life incarnate, at
least she is my fire and life incarnate. She holds the world up on her
shoulders and my heart in her hands. Without her I'll be truly lost.
Without her I'll be truly gone. Without her...I'll have no reason to go
on and I know; should I loose her again....I shall not.
She presses closer to me in her sleep and I caresses her cheek ever so
softly before I bend down and plant a light kiss to her forehead. She is
so many things to me but most of all; she is love. Even before we met I
loved her; I loved my firebird; her warmth was never burning, it was
healing, her fire was never dangerous, it was filled with love. My
firebird..my salvation, my support....my love, my wife.
She is everything to me.
She is everything I ever need.
She is all I ever had.